I've had my first bout of insomnia in a few weeks just now. I was lying in bed and it got to that point where I thought, "Nope, I'm not getting to sleep" and I was wide awake. The problem is I felt more relaxed getting into bed than I have in ages, I was chilled out in bed, I had some nice droney music on and it still didn't happen. AND! I've drunk far less coffee than usual today, which isn't supposed to make me more awake. I think I know what the problem is. I've been cutting back a good bit on my food (again.) When I was first diagnosed with depression I was on medication that 30 minutes after taking I became incredibly hungry, to the point of an aching pain. So, I would eat. And I discovered very quickly that eating after this medication made me doped out as all tings. Like my body weighed a tonne and everything was woozy and great. Then I'd pass out in bed within seconds. So of course, for a few years, I self-medicated with this weird combination: pill, food, doped up, bed. I genuinely think I was addicted to this pattern. I put on a phenomenal amount of weight during that period (which I am now trying to lose.) However I don't think I've lost the mental association between feeling full and falling asleep. For the past few days I've only gone to bed when I've been up for ages, but tonight I went to bed when I was simply feeling tired. So I'm sitting here, tired, hungry and thinking that the key to getting to sleep is by munching down on those tortilla chips in the kitchen. Which I don't want to do. And I'm fucking pissed off about it all.